MEDITATIONS ..

Ramdan this year is Special! At least to me. I tried and I still trying to get the most of it. From the very first day of Ramadan I was drawn in the sea of queries .. confusion .. hope .. looking into my self wondering if I'm on the right path to seek the better person I wanna be. It's the feeling of something inside me has reawaken .. or revived this time urging me to meditate on my self and life with an open mind, examining eye, sincere heart and a unfeigned faith to realize what path I'm on and what changes I need in my self.

In the same time, I keep doing what I always do every Ramadan. Which is reading Qura'an, praying Tarwe7 and saying prayers whenever I recall what I want from this life. And of course thanks god I'm not a big fan of Arabic TV shows and it's drama. I think it's of a low quality and dreadfully pointless therefore it's a waste of time.

Speaking of TV shows, I only watch two. (Khawater 6) for Ahmad Al-Shuqairy and ( Biny o Benakom ) for Mohammad Al-Owadhy. I'm not gonna elaborate telling you about these two shows. because I'm sure we all - or the majority as I hope - know them very well. But I must put my remark and rise my hand up high applauding and clapping in respect for Mr. Al-shuqairy.

On the twenty first of Ramadan he gave us - in my opinion - one of his best episodes ever! He really out done him self when he clarified to us the concept of ( coexisting ) or ( Ta'aayosh ) as we say it in Arabic.

My mind .. my tongue .. my fingers can not just describe what I've felt when I saw with my eyes and heard with my ears what have been aired on that episode.
It may seem to some people to be just words and scenes drained of any meanings .. a job that must be done to earn some money .. a weak futile attempt to wake up dormant minds and open up blinded eyes to see the real facts and truth ..
but to me .. it certainly touched my heart that my tears would've been fallen over my cheeks if I haven't pressed my self into hiding them at that moment. It emphasized an idea I always believed in. That is :

(whatever your religion is - whether Muslim, Christean, Jewish ...etc - we could still live in harmony and satisfaction if each one of us knows how to respect others and values the humanity as it is and treats others based on this concept .. on this fact - that we are HUMANS - before seeing them as in races, sex, nationalities or whatever differences we have.)

It's not new .. I didn't discover that on my own .. it's all mentioned in Qura'an and taught by our messenger ( Muhammad peace be upon him ) .. look at this

يقول الله سبحانه وتعالى: يَا أَيُّهَا النَّاسُ إِنَّا خَلَقْنَاكُمْ مِنْ ذَكَرٍ وَأُنثَى وَجَعَلْنَاكُمْ شُعُوبًا وَقَبَائِلَ لِتَعَارَفُوا إِنَّ أَكْرَمَكُمْ عِنْدَ اللَّهِ أَتْقَاكُمْ إِنَّ اللَّهَ عَلِيمٌ خَبِيرٌ [الحجرات:13]

عن جابر أن النبي صلى الله عليه وسلم مروا عليه بجنازة فقام لها واقفاً ، فقالوا : يا رسول الله إنها جنازة يهودي !! فقال : ( أليست نفساً؟).١

so after this episode, I decided to upload it here as a way to show my support .. my believes .. and as an appreciation and respect for Mr. Al-Shuqairy. may allah grant him the strength and the sincerity to continue the good deeds he started.

Rumblings of an Insomniac

Assalmu Alaikom
Ramadan Mubarak and Kol sana o ento 6ayyebeen =)

normally, in a time like this - around 6:16 p.m - I should be deeply sleeping having sweet dreams. instead, I'm fully awake and no mater what I do I can never get the happy sleep I want. since that, I decided to write random things about my self until I get tired and fall asleep.

1) Yesterday, I dreamed about Peter Pan! actually I dreamed about almost all the characters with Peter Pan except for him! I know .. weird! but I think I was him, because I was rescuing my cousins with the his children fellows and Tinker bill of course XD. I loved the part when I was flying on my own XD.
I dunno why I dreamed of them, I don't even like the guy!

2) I have a prayer rug since I was 6 years old that I still use until now. I never changed it and I never felt it's small for me, but people keep telling me why I keep such thing with me all these years. well , honestly .. I dunno .. maybe coz my mom gave it to me in the first place .. or maybe coz I never felt it's getting smaller for me .. but I do know this : I love it and I don't think I'm gonna give it away any soon.

3) YA RAB WE GET THE RED CAR. It's SO BEAUTIFUL .. I fell in LOVE with it .. it's a LOVE from the first sight ❤❥❦

4) I'm craving for Indian Food.

5) I must loose some weight.

6) My sister always tells me that I move during sleeping. it's not like sleep walking ,it's more like I play with my hands when I'm asleep. she says that I often wave my hands or I point to something or I rise my arms like I'm wanting to grab some one. She also says that I sometimes talk. as weird as it may sound - or it may not - it doesn't bother me at all. one of my weird wishes is sleep walking, so moving and talking is close to it :P

7) I haven't bought a single piece of clothing for (EID) until now!!

8) my last attempt to sleep is reading, coz I know my self, every time I grab a book to read I immediately fall asleep on it. although I'm doubting this now, my reading skills have developed during the summer and I've became a bit more tolerant than before.

9) before I go, I'll finish my post with this inspiring short story that I've read just before I write all this .. it's in Arabic- and that's what makes it even more beautiful ❤

أحد السلف كان أقرع الرأس .. أبرص البدن .. أعمى العينين .. مشلول القدمين و اليدين، و كان يقول: ( " الحمد لله الذي عافاني مما ابتلى به كثيرا من خلقه، و فضلني عليهم تفضيلا "). فمر به رجل فقال له: مما عافاك؟؟ أعمى و أبرص و أقرع و مشلول .. فمما عافامك؟ فقال : ويحك يا رجل! جعل لي لسانا ذاكرا، و قلبا شاكرا، و بدنا على البلاء صابرا، اللهم ما أصبح بي من نعمة أو بأحد من خلقك فمنك و حدك لا شريك لك ، فلك الحمد و لك الشكر.١

My Home Summer Job $$$

Summer and money. These two words are strictly bound to each other no matter what your plans are. Whether to spend money on traveling, shopping, investments...etc. Or to earn money like applying for a summer job. Or starting a temporary business…etc.

I was thinking before my vacation started about getting a summer job, but the circumstances didn’t really helped me getting one. Lucky me, I have a sister who got a summer contract with some governmental institution. She’s like a supervisor and a technician in the same time. She has to do all the hard work Like preparing the power points, the data shows, the food, she has to watch over the girls and god knows what else she has to do too.

One day she asked for my personal opinion on the introductory power point. I told her what I think. Then, I offered her my professional help in exchange of a favor I wanted from her. She accepted that and told me if she liked my work she’s gonna make a professional deal with me. my mind went like awww professional = $$$! I can't refuse that so I took the deal.

I made the ppt and she liked it. Then she offered me to pay 30 Rs. for every 10 slides I do. I was like .. WOoOW! A real profit .. I get to earn money of my own effort. I accepted the deal immediately I didn’t even bargain.

Until now I’ve made 6 power points and one design for a brochure- yeah .. this counts too ☺. And almost each one of them contains 15 – 25 slides. Well.. you do the math. :P I’m sure it’s 100 something -if not 200!! XD.

Awww.. I’m so happy and proud of my self. May this be the beginning of a successful career for me XD.

THE UGLY MAID!

Guess what bloggers?! I just came from my aunt’s house. She was having a dinner coz she has a new grandson. Don’t get so excited!! I didn’t wanna go in the first place coz I don’t actually care! I mean I don’t like children and I don’t really get along so easily with my relatives of my mother side. However, I was surprised this evening when I heard my aunt’s daughter in-low - (K) - telling us what she likes for her maid to be like.

She had two maids lately. The first one she was pretty in an acceptable way. When she came to KSA the first time, she was wearing this very tight jeans and a red tight short t-shirt exposing some of her belly. (K) was supposed to be upset, instead she was happy, but her husband wasn’t! So the next day, he went to the (este8dam) office, yelled at them n asked for a new maid n’ take this one back.

Of course, in order to do so, he must pay extra money. Poor cousin! ;P

The second maid –according to her sayings – was a disaster!!!!!!

From the very first moment she and her husband put their eyes on her, they opened their mouths and eyes widely in SHOCK!!!!! Guess what was the reason!

I’ll tell you what was it. (K) was shocked because her new maid is UGLY!!! Her husband was shocked, because he knew his wife wouldn’t accept her, which means the money he just spent on her is gone! I feel for you cous., I know how it feels loosing ur money!. x) It took his wife few moments to ask him to take her back and ask the (este8dam) office for another new maid. But this time she told him to write on the official papers that their maid MUST BE BEAUTIFUL or of an ACCEPTABLE APPEARANCE!!!!!!!!

Could you believe this!! She is unbelievable!!!!! I remember when I read this article in the newspaper about the Saudi government allowing the recruitment of maids from Afghanistan and the surrounding countries. The Saudi women weren’t soo happy, they felt threatened by them. They were afraid that their maids may steal their husbands from them!!

When I heard her story, I was laughing like everybody else. But in the same time, I was very upset! I mean ppl don’t have the right to judge other ppl based on their appearance. And she was talking about her maid like she is some sort of monster or an unwanted creature! Beside, she's came all the way leaving her country .. her family and beloved ones just to serve other ppl whom she does not even know. that should be considered before any master thinks about insulting his\her maid! she's here to help you in your home .. she's not a model to consider her beauty. Luckily for us, (K) brought her maid with her. So, my mom told her to call for her maid so we can take a look at her. To be honest, I hated what my mom did. I told them I’m afraid if she came I might burst into laughing, so plz don’t do that. But my mom insisted. When the maid came, I must say, she wasn’t very pretty! But she was acceptable to me. She just has this swollen upper lip like it was bitten by an insect. After she’s gone, they started to tell some jokes about her. I was really uncomfortable with that. I wanted to yell at them and slap that (K) on her face for the jokes she made and for the unreasonable demands. But I hold it together, and I managed to close the subject.

How cruel that could be?! I mean take a look at this:

عن أنس رضي الله عنه قال: " خدمت رسول الله صلى الله عليه و سلم تسع سنين، فما أعلمه قال لي قط لما فعلت كذا و كذا و لا عاب علي شيئا قط"١

قال صلى الله عليه و سلم : “ لا فرق بين عربي و لا اعجمي إلا بالتقوى، إن أكرمكم عند الله أتقاكم".ا

it seems so simple, but in real life, we almost never pay attention to this!

SUMMER & GOOD MEMORIES

It's SUMMER everyone .. finally, we can rest! NO more studying.. NO more exams .. MUCH MORE FUN is waiting for us .. I hope..

SO HAPPY SUMMER FOR U BLOGGERS!

I'm telling u that, because me myself is having a rough time these days. But I'm trying to adopt by remembering and recalling good times, nice memories and LOADS and LOADS of TV-series and movies. I'm so addicted to these things. The funny thing is they are called ((TV))-shows, but I never open the TV except rarely, I have them all in my sweet precious laptop.
I had so much plans for this summer .. but I'm afraid I have no control on my life right now.. I just have to be patient. I hope by time every thing is gonna work for me.
The title of my post says "GOOD MEMORIES" .. yes .. good memories. They are one of my precious things that I have. That kind of things that gives me strength and helps me back on track when I get lost sometimes.

one of these memories is the day when my eldest bro. told me "I LOVE YOU"!

one day he called me, to check on me and the family - since he's a newly married man and apparently he does misses his family pretty mush, which goes against what he expected before he got married lol. we blabbed and blabbed and then we laughed and then he told me:

" u know what !!? I LOVE U .. and I love talkin' to u .. u makes me happy every time I do so.. u'r funny and easy to talk to".

I know this sounds like a boy talking to his girl friend .. but when I heard these words .. specially that they are coming out of my brother .. it meant every thing to me .. like the world to me!
that made me feel warm and content and most importantly.. it made me feel that I'm a good person.

I must confess .. me and him didn't really have this perfect brother-sister relationship in the past. We were like oil and fire .. dog and a cat!! suddenly, after his marriage, everything have changed! I changed .. he changed.. we became more mature and more peaceful. In our family, we're not used to show our love to each other. not by words , not by kisses nor by hugs! Beside, I have this idea in my head of me being waaaay too far of a funny person, despite what I hear from other ppl. So, u can imagine how something like this would make my day.

His wife told me once that he likes talkin' to me , he likes when I go out with them. she told me that before he does, but I didn't really go with it ..considering our shameful past.

A memory like this always brings the good out of me .. making me remember one of my utmost wishes in life .. which is to make every one happy. And knowing that I could do so to even to one single person makes my heart jumps of joy.

Oops!!! I made a SPELLING mistake!!!

one day, in the middle of exams. I opened my FB. I saw my cousin - who's younger than me by a few years - writing something in his status about his mom and two sisters being away of home. he seemed desperate. so, I thought I may cheer him up. I commented and I made a joke.
after that comment ,he never replayed back nor commented on my things. although we used to to do so pretty much!!
when I went back to check the joke , I was SHOCKED!!!!!! I knew then why he did what he did. I wished if it's the silly joke that I made was the reason for him to cut me off, but apparently it's not.

It's because of a spelling mistake! instead of writing "cook" , I deleted one "O" added an extra "C" after the "O" and before the "K". at the end it became like this: " coCk". Oops!!!!!! I know ..it's a bad word!
that was the ultimate embarrassment .. the ultimate humiliation!!! I couldn't write anything after that. and we never back to what we were. he even doesn't tag me anymore. he tags every body I know ,my sisters ,my brothers , my cousins but not me.

It breaks my heart and makes me sad to live like this. I don't know how I would ever fix this.
ugggghhhghgh .. I HATE SPELLING MISTAKES!!!

seven random things

I don't know what to tell you exactly , but I'll write the first things that come to my mind, so here you go:

DARKNESS is one of my biggest fears , I can't sleep if the room is too dark !

I love or lets say: I prefer older men on younger ones, they're more mature n much more hot !

I love to sing , I used to have a beautiful voice when I was younger, n I still do! but I need to practice some more.

although I'm too afraid of the dark , but one of the most favorable times for me to think n clear my mind is at night!! when every body is asleep , n I'm laying on my bed looking at the moon out of the window =)

I always cry at the night before the school, of course not in front of every one! only when they all go to bed.

I have a REEEEEALLY HUGE crush on one of my doctors!!!

I once had a daughter, but they took her away from me !! =''( but now I have a son , whom I adore n I love soooooo much

Thanks dear Fadiosis for the tag ! I really didn't know what to write till I got your tag =)