I NEED YOU MY CLOSET, I'M GONNA KILL SOMEBODY!!!

WARNING: this post may contain inappropriate words. if you wish to continue, please don't lecture and don't judge me!

I SOOO need my closet back right now. I'm pissed, angry, furious, irate, enraged ..etc. you may use whatever synonyms that come to your mind. I'm so angry that I'm ready to kill anyone who dares to cross me again. yes .. you may say that I TOTALLY LOST IT!

my sister's wedding is so close, it's about three weeks from now. I found my dream dress. it's simple and elegant just like I wish, but I didn't buy it till now and en sha'a allah I will soon. what makes me wanna rip someone's head off is that one of my younger sisters is insisting on getting a dress in almost the same color and the same model, although I have WARNED them - my entire family - not to get or even think close to that. because one of the most important rules in siblings weddings is that " you don't get to wear like each other not even closely! unless it's O.K. among your sisters to do so".

it's like a SIN! just WRONG .. FORBIDDEN .. PROHIBITED!!!

when it happens that one of the sisters wants what the other sister desires, ones must drop it and respects the other sister's desire and look for other options. there is always a plan B. there are LOADS and LOADS of dresses why you wanna play with fire?!!

actually there are lots of other reasons that are making me what I am now. one of them is I got into a HUGE horrible fight with my parents because of that. they don't share me the same mentality and are standing against me. I hate it because they shouldn't - specially mom! because I told her about my choice waaay before my other sis did. y3ny she was supposed to know the situation and respect my wish. but apparently I got stabbed in the back and thrown out of the window. :S

I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I'm pissed and I wanna kill somebody!! :@ maybe I should look for that singer whom my friend R told us about. so I don't go straight to hill.

OSCE DAY

hey there .. today I had a mid rotation OSCE in family medicine. I can't tell u how weird and confusing that exam was. I'm praying to god to have mercy on me and my friends. some of us , well , most of us were very unhappy and unsatisfied with the exam, but we managed to break through the day with BIG smiles on our faces every time we recall the exam and the amount of silly, dumb, innocent and funny things we did during it out of fear n' anxiety.

for instance, I was gonna leave the examination room with actually no scarf covering my head!! there was no time n' I was in a hurry n' totally forgot about it .. xD

and one of my friends kept holding the patient's foot while giving her advice about diabetic foot and she wasn't supposed to do that. beside she kept repeating the word "iltehab"- meaning "inflammation" - to the patient in almost every sentence .. I couldn't believe that medicine in Arabic would be awkward until this day came :P

another one forgot to ask about the patient's name and when the doctor confront her about that, she simply replayed confidently: " Fatima"! guess what .. her name was "Mariam" .. I know a complete bummer LOOOL xD

when we finished the exam they told us to leave the floor so we don't help the other girls who didn't take the exam to cheat. me and all my group friends were in one elevator on our way to the hospital cafeteria. during that time we went completely crazy. we yelled .. cursed .. n' even one of us screamed with the "F" word n' she's usually not that kind of person !! at that exact moment the elevator door opened and a bunch of male students appeared in front of us!!! I don't know whether they heard that or not, and even if they did I can't imagine how their reactions would be! also at that moment my sweet smart cookie was fixing her scarf and coincidentally an edgy small part of her scarf hit my eyes. so my eyes went all red a teary. I walked out of the elevator looking like a girl who cries over exams - which I'm NOT btw. I only did it once in high school and never did again.

we all were very tired and exhausted. me my self I was very tired and sleepy for I didn't sleep the night before. we had a lecture after that from 1:00 p.m to almost 3:15 p.m but my eyes couldn't stay open for even a fraction of a second.
now that I'm home, I'm catching up with my TV-series that I couldn't watch last week when I was studying for the exam. an episode after another .. the ULTIMATE joy for me .XD

enjoy your day sweets =D