I NEED YOU MY CLOSET, I'M GONNA KILL SOMEBODY!!!

WARNING: this post may contain inappropriate words. if you wish to continue, please don't lecture and don't judge me!

I SOOO need my closet back right now. I'm pissed, angry, furious, irate, enraged ..etc. you may use whatever synonyms that come to your mind. I'm so angry that I'm ready to kill anyone who dares to cross me again. yes .. you may say that I TOTALLY LOST IT!

my sister's wedding is so close, it's about three weeks from now. I found my dream dress. it's simple and elegant just like I wish, but I didn't buy it till now and en sha'a allah I will soon. what makes me wanna rip someone's head off is that one of my younger sisters is insisting on getting a dress in almost the same color and the same model, although I have WARNED them - my entire family - not to get or even think close to that. because one of the most important rules in siblings weddings is that " you don't get to wear like each other not even closely! unless it's O.K. among your sisters to do so".

it's like a SIN! just WRONG .. FORBIDDEN .. PROHIBITED!!!

when it happens that one of the sisters wants what the other sister desires, ones must drop it and respects the other sister's desire and look for other options. there is always a plan B. there are LOADS and LOADS of dresses why you wanna play with fire?!!

actually there are lots of other reasons that are making me what I am now. one of them is I got into a HUGE horrible fight with my parents because of that. they don't share me the same mentality and are standing against me. I hate it because they shouldn't - specially mom! because I told her about my choice waaay before my other sis did. y3ny she was supposed to know the situation and respect my wish. but apparently I got stabbed in the back and thrown out of the window. :S

I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I'm pissed and I wanna kill somebody!! :@ maybe I should look for that singer whom my friend R told us about. so I don't go straight to hill.

THE UGLY MAID!

Guess what bloggers?! I just came from my aunt’s house. She was having a dinner coz she has a new grandson. Don’t get so excited!! I didn’t wanna go in the first place coz I don’t actually care! I mean I don’t like children and I don’t really get along so easily with my relatives of my mother side. However, I was surprised this evening when I heard my aunt’s daughter in-low - (K) - telling us what she likes for her maid to be like.

She had two maids lately. The first one she was pretty in an acceptable way. When she came to KSA the first time, she was wearing this very tight jeans and a red tight short t-shirt exposing some of her belly. (K) was supposed to be upset, instead she was happy, but her husband wasn’t! So the next day, he went to the (este8dam) office, yelled at them n asked for a new maid n’ take this one back.

Of course, in order to do so, he must pay extra money. Poor cousin! ;P

The second maid –according to her sayings – was a disaster!!!!!!

From the very first moment she and her husband put their eyes on her, they opened their mouths and eyes widely in SHOCK!!!!! Guess what was the reason!

I’ll tell you what was it. (K) was shocked because her new maid is UGLY!!! Her husband was shocked, because he knew his wife wouldn’t accept her, which means the money he just spent on her is gone! I feel for you cous., I know how it feels loosing ur money!. x) It took his wife few moments to ask him to take her back and ask the (este8dam) office for another new maid. But this time she told him to write on the official papers that their maid MUST BE BEAUTIFUL or of an ACCEPTABLE APPEARANCE!!!!!!!!

Could you believe this!! She is unbelievable!!!!! I remember when I read this article in the newspaper about the Saudi government allowing the recruitment of maids from Afghanistan and the surrounding countries. The Saudi women weren’t soo happy, they felt threatened by them. They were afraid that their maids may steal their husbands from them!!

When I heard her story, I was laughing like everybody else. But in the same time, I was very upset! I mean ppl don’t have the right to judge other ppl based on their appearance. And she was talking about her maid like she is some sort of monster or an unwanted creature! Beside, she's came all the way leaving her country .. her family and beloved ones just to serve other ppl whom she does not even know. that should be considered before any master thinks about insulting his\her maid! she's here to help you in your home .. she's not a model to consider her beauty. Luckily for us, (K) brought her maid with her. So, my mom told her to call for her maid so we can take a look at her. To be honest, I hated what my mom did. I told them I’m afraid if she came I might burst into laughing, so plz don’t do that. But my mom insisted. When the maid came, I must say, she wasn’t very pretty! But she was acceptable to me. She just has this swollen upper lip like it was bitten by an insect. After she’s gone, they started to tell some jokes about her. I was really uncomfortable with that. I wanted to yell at them and slap that (K) on her face for the jokes she made and for the unreasonable demands. But I hold it together, and I managed to close the subject.

How cruel that could be?! I mean take a look at this:

عن أنس رضي الله عنه قال: " خدمت رسول الله صلى الله عليه و سلم تسع سنين، فما أعلمه قال لي قط لما فعلت كذا و كذا و لا عاب علي شيئا قط"١

قال صلى الله عليه و سلم : “ لا فرق بين عربي و لا اعجمي إلا بالتقوى، إن أكرمكم عند الله أتقاكم".ا

it seems so simple, but in real life, we almost never pay attention to this!

SUMMER & GOOD MEMORIES

It's SUMMER everyone .. finally, we can rest! NO more studying.. NO more exams .. MUCH MORE FUN is waiting for us .. I hope..

SO HAPPY SUMMER FOR U BLOGGERS!

I'm telling u that, because me myself is having a rough time these days. But I'm trying to adopt by remembering and recalling good times, nice memories and LOADS and LOADS of TV-series and movies. I'm so addicted to these things. The funny thing is they are called ((TV))-shows, but I never open the TV except rarely, I have them all in my sweet precious laptop.
I had so much plans for this summer .. but I'm afraid I have no control on my life right now.. I just have to be patient. I hope by time every thing is gonna work for me.
The title of my post says "GOOD MEMORIES" .. yes .. good memories. They are one of my precious things that I have. That kind of things that gives me strength and helps me back on track when I get lost sometimes.

one of these memories is the day when my eldest bro. told me "I LOVE YOU"!

one day he called me, to check on me and the family - since he's a newly married man and apparently he does misses his family pretty mush, which goes against what he expected before he got married lol. we blabbed and blabbed and then we laughed and then he told me:

" u know what !!? I LOVE U .. and I love talkin' to u .. u makes me happy every time I do so.. u'r funny and easy to talk to".

I know this sounds like a boy talking to his girl friend .. but when I heard these words .. specially that they are coming out of my brother .. it meant every thing to me .. like the world to me!
that made me feel warm and content and most importantly.. it made me feel that I'm a good person.

I must confess .. me and him didn't really have this perfect brother-sister relationship in the past. We were like oil and fire .. dog and a cat!! suddenly, after his marriage, everything have changed! I changed .. he changed.. we became more mature and more peaceful. In our family, we're not used to show our love to each other. not by words , not by kisses nor by hugs! Beside, I have this idea in my head of me being waaaay too far of a funny person, despite what I hear from other ppl. So, u can imagine how something like this would make my day.

His wife told me once that he likes talkin' to me , he likes when I go out with them. she told me that before he does, but I didn't really go with it ..considering our shameful past.

A memory like this always brings the good out of me .. making me remember one of my utmost wishes in life .. which is to make every one happy. And knowing that I could do so to even to one single person makes my heart jumps of joy.

seven random things

I don't know what to tell you exactly , but I'll write the first things that come to my mind, so here you go:

DARKNESS is one of my biggest fears , I can't sleep if the room is too dark !

I love or lets say: I prefer older men on younger ones, they're more mature n much more hot !

I love to sing , I used to have a beautiful voice when I was younger, n I still do! but I need to practice some more.

although I'm too afraid of the dark , but one of the most favorable times for me to think n clear my mind is at night!! when every body is asleep , n I'm laying on my bed looking at the moon out of the window =)

I always cry at the night before the school, of course not in front of every one! only when they all go to bed.

I have a REEEEEALLY HUGE crush on one of my doctors!!!

I once had a daughter, but they took her away from me !! =''( but now I have a son , whom I adore n I love soooooo much

Thanks dear Fadiosis for the tag ! I really didn't know what to write till I got your tag =)